Monthly Archives: September 2012

Losing My Voice

It’s not from being sick. Or maybe it is. But I definitely lost my voice.

I haven’t written in weeks. Several. And it doesn’t feel right.

So bear with me while I try to find it again.

This fall brought such change to our lives. I know you empty nesters are thinking – you have no idea! But it was a big change for us. For me really. Not that I’m not coping with things. Just that life has seemed to take an incredible amount of energy. It has taken my all to manage all of the things going on for our family. I’m not complaining, anything but! We are very blessed and this transition is as it should be. I couldn’t ask for a better start to the school year for all three boys. Life is really good. But it is definitely a full-time commitment!

In all the hustle and bustle of the fall, I haven’t really had time to write. Or I haven’t taken time to write. Actually, I think it’s that I haven’t had any complete thoughts since sometime in August. Ya, its sad. But true.

I have two ways of writing on my blog. Either I formulate the post in my head, usually while I’m driving or showering. {I sure wish someone would develop a way for me to capture the brilliant ideas that come to me in the shower!} Sometimes,  can remember enough of my thoughts to actually get them on paper {or screen} before they are gone forever. Or, I sit down at the computer and spew out whatever is on my mind. Both of these methods require some amount of thought. {I know, that’s shocking considering some of my posts:)} So I think that’s the key. I haven’t completed any thoughts.

But the last thing I want is to stop writing! I get so much out of putting words to my feelings and experiences. I love to tell the stories of our family’s ridiculous life! So I’m taking some of the advice I give my kids quite often.

  1. If something matters to you, you will make time for it. This blog and my writing matter, so I’m re-committing to spending time on both.
  2. Sometimes you have to go through the motions until your heart follows. When I sat down to write today there was nothing in my head – Be Nice! So its time to free flow the words and see what comes.
  3. Just start. Things can seem big, way big and they can overwhelm you if you think too much about them. You can plan and analyze things to death. But at some point, unless you start, you will never accomplish anything. So, you have to just start.

There you have it. My attempt at getting back in the game. Picking up the proverbial pen and putting it to paper. It ain’t pretty, but it’s a start.

And I think I’ll file it under Randomness!


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