Monthly Archives: March 2012

Thankful Thursday – Clearing the Fog

Today I am thankful for the days when the fog lifts and I can get out of my funk. {I could go for a literal lifting of the fog – it’s been rainy since Monday!} I knew it would happen, always does.

I’m thankful for surprise opportunities that come along and give me new and exciting directions.

I’m thankful for the way God puts people and challenges in my life at just the right times.

And I’m thankful for the talents God has given me and the doors He’s opening to allow me to use them.

I promise to use them to the fullest to do positive things for others.

And I promise to share more about them in the near future. {I know, you are dying to know. Waiting with bated breath.}

Have a Thankful Thursday yourself!

In fact, why don’t you leave a comment and let others know what you are thankful for today?

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In a Funk

I haven’t written anything in two weeks and it feels terrible. With spring break and all the projects we had going on, I just didn’t have the energy to write at the end of the day. Not that I have much energy today either.

I think I’m in a bit of a funk too.

Do you ever get that way? Where you just can’t quite get excited about anything. Lots to do and tons to be thankful for. Just not super motivated about anything.

And I start to second guess myself. And read too much into things that are said to me.

It’s happened before. And it will happen again. I probably need to exercise. I t would make me feel better! But, its rainy and dreary. 

Sometimes it just feels like the emotionally tough things all happen at once. I guess that’s good since it also must mean most of the time I’m not dealing with the yuck. But none the less, it makes for a rough day or two. I do know though that it will pass. It always does. So, I just hang on and wait it out as best I can.

And take a bit of my own advice – choose a different attitude:).

Hopefully I will write something amazing and inspiring this weekend! Ok, maybe just something about our crazy life. There was plenty of crazy over spring break! And there are some fun opportunities on the horizon.

I hope you have a great week!

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Thankful Thursday – Blue Skies and Sunshine

I carried my camera with me several times over the last week and had to pull over twice to capture what I was seeing.

It kind of took my breath away.

The biggest fluffiest clouds. I needed to see them! And the sunshine.

Nearly blinding to drive into, but so beautiful to look at.

Pretty amazing considering this was taken on my way home from work the same day I took this one right before lunch.

Yes. That is snow. Lots of snow. It snowed for a couple of hours. Big flakes. That disappeared as soon as they hit the ground. And then when I drove home from work, blue skies and a beautiful sunset. And 50 degrees.

I love Kansas!

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Senior Year – Nesting

I think there is a weird phenomenon going on at my house. Things are getting done.  Yea, I know, that shouldn’t be odd. But it is. Remember I need a closer.

Things have changed. Maybe it’s only temporary, but I’ll take it. The house clean and projects are getting finished! I feel a sense of having “my house in order,” but not in the I’m ready to die way. In the its ok if you invite a study group over after school and don’t give me a heads up way. It’s been happening pretty much since the beginning of the year. It wasn’t making sense, but I just put it together.

It’s like I’m nesting! You know, before you have a baby? When you have this strange energy and focus to get things done? That’s how I feel. I have a strange energy and focus and am rocking through my Before Graduation list! It’s like graduation nesting. God is mentally preparing me for the next phase.

Middle and Youngest Sons are also helping me to prepare. How you ask? We live in a 3 bedroom house and those two share a bedroom. {They aren’t the only ones. Hubby and I share a room too:)! He he} They are just two short years apart in age and both teenagers. That should explain a lot. They are doing me the favor of bickering non-stop, constantly picking at each other and pushing the other’s buttons. And they are both very good at it. It’s like they have been preparing for this moment for 14 years. Remembering every little thing that makes the other one crazy and waiting for the exact moment when doing that one little thing will push the other over the edge.

I can’t take it anymore!

And the solution? Simple. They need to not share a bedroom anymore.

How do we do that? Again, simple. Oldest Son has to move out.

It’s that easy. Then they can each have their own room. And I can have a little more peace and quiet. I’m ready for that peace and quite.

Maybe God is working through Middle and Youngest Sons! U2 does say He moves in mysterious ways…

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Don’t Judge Me – Have My Back!

This post has been weighing on me for a while. I wasn’t sure how to write it, but it didn’t go away so I know I need to get it out. Please try to read it without taking offense, none was intended.

We live in a very affluent area. Many people seem to have limitless resources. We aren’t among them. Of course there are those who have much less than we do, but there are many who have much more. I don’t begrudge anyone for what they have. They earned it. They made choices that got them where they are and that’s great.

I am not unhappy where I am.

Could things be easier if we had more money? Probably, but most people could say yes to that.

I am content. I have what I need. Not everything I want, but I have what I need.

The one aspect of my life that sometimes gives me that twang of regret? That I haven’t provided more for my kids. And that is a conundrum. I don’t think it’s good parenting to give a child all they want, but there are things I wish we could do. I do wish we had managed to save money for their education. They don’t need the latest and greatest of everything, but it would be nice to offer them something special and unexpected.

We have chosen to focus more on opportunities than things with our kids. And I think that was the right decision for us. Things like the opportunity to be in Boy Scouts and attend 10 days of summer camp or go on campouts. The opportunity to be involved in youth group at our church and go on mission trips where they learn so much about themselves and the world in which they live. And even the opportunity to go on trips with the school, like band trips. I think these things all shape them in different ways. They give them the chance to experience new things, meet new people and stretch themselves.

And they also cost a lot of money.

That’s why we have made tough choices about who goes, when they go and how often. Because our resources, like most people’s, are limited.

Yet recently I heard some other parents are wondering why I wouldn’t want my son to take advantage of an upcoming opportunity. One with a $1600 price tag. One that he will have again in a few years. They just couldn’t understand how I could deprive him of that. It was as though I must not love my son. As though I don’t appreciate the hard work he has done.

That hurts to my core.

The reality is, it is so much more complex than that. Things quite often are not as simple as they first appear. Of course I want to give him the world!

Maybe the reality is, I can’t afford to give him this opportunity. 

Maybe its about allowing a sibling this opportunity at this moment. 

Maybe I believe it’s ok for him to have to wait for a few years for his opportunity. That he will appreciate it more at that point.

It really doesn’t matter why.

I have more information than others about our big picture. I know my child and I know the hopes and dreams I have for him and those he has for himself.

Parenting is hard. It seems like we should have each others’ backs. That we should try to understand and trust that we are all doing what we think is the right thing under the circumstances. 

That we all love our children and want the best for them.

And that the best doesn’t look the same for everyone.

{Note: I realize I used the word “I” throughout this post. I am married and we do make many decisions together. Please don’t assume by the use of I that I’m all alone in parenting. I am simply writing my thoughts not Hubby’s. I didn’t ask him his opinions, nor get his ok to include them in this post:). So what you read is what I think, feel, know, want, expect….Thanks for reading.}

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The Pinterest Predicament

Are you on Pinterest? You have to have heard of it…or been living under a rock.

Pinterest is like an online bulletin board where you can organize your ideas into categories and share them with friends. When you are surfing the web or browsing blogs you can “Pin It” to your Pinterest and choose which picture to feature. And the beauty is the picture you pin will link back to the website where you found it! I used to try to add pages to my favorites so I could find them later. I can’t tell you how often I would get inspiration from something I’d seen online, and then when I tried to make it I would need to look back for a detail I couldn’t remember. And inevitably I wouldn’t be able to find it. So frustrating!

And then, about a year ago, I started hearing about a website called Pinterest. Like “interest” with a “P”. But I couldn’t actually get on it. You have to have an invitation! That was marketing genius – we always want what we can’t have. I reached out to some bloggers I had been reading who I knew were on Pinterest. I begged for an invitation. Yes, I’m not proud, but desperate times call for desperate measures.

And then my invitation arrived! I was in! And the adventure began.

No one I knew was on Pinterest back then. Kind of like when I joined FaceBook. There was so much to explore, so many creative ideas just waiting to be tried. Interesting blogs waiting to be read. It was heavenly. But it also existed in some kind of alternate dimension. I would log on, look at a “couple things” and look up and an hour had passed! I don’t know how it happened, but time was in fast forward when I browsed Pinterest.

One of my many favorites from my Words board:

Thank you Pinterest
for making me feel creative
when I’ve really just been
staring at my computer
for 3 hours!

It’s so true! Pinterest is full of creative ideas, upcycling projects, nifty tips and all the things I love. I could literally spend hours looking at ideas, dreaming about what I could do. I have to be deliberate in walking away from the computer and getting to work.

But I’ve also found so many new blogs to read and follow. And now friends are joining pinterest in droves. You can follow my boards by clicking the red “follow me on Pinterest” on the right.
 
I will say it has changed a bit. There is much more about fashion and fitness {neither are really my forte or what I’m on pinterest for}, but to each his own:). It’s a bit more challenging to wade through the stuff that doesn’t interest me to get to the meat. The juicy new ideas, clever tips, simple techniques that drew me to pinterest. I guess that’s the way it is when things grow and gain popularity. They are bound to evolve. Don’t get me wrong, I can still waste plenty of time browsing ideas. I just have to work a little harder to find “my” niche.
 
Next week I’ll try to post some of the things I’ve actually made with inspiration from pinterest!
 
 

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Lists, Anti-Procrastinators and Other Random Thoughts on a Saturday

I am a list maker. Are you?

I love to write down – yes, with paper and pencil – everything I want to accomplish. It feels kind of liberating and empowering to me. Maybe that’s because my memory is horrible these days? {On a side note, I did hear something on the news about not getting enough sleep makes you have bad memory and they think it may lead to Alzheimer’s. Great! Hubby and I are doomed.}

Saturdays are when I feel a super strong need to have a list. And my sons are very aware of that need. I think if there is one area I feel really guilty about not doing better parenting, it is with time management. {Ok, who am I kidding, there is way more than one area! But let’s pretend there’s just one.} You see, I am a procrastinator at heart. I’m pretty sure it’s in my DNA and just who I am. I do hate the judgement that comes with that. Procrastinators get a bad wrap! There is this whole thought around how that means we are less organized, disciplined, responsible, etc. I think thee is another side. Procrastinators are resourceful, creative, and adaptable. I think there is something weird about having to do everything immediately or way ahead. {Notice there is no name for the opposite of procrastinators! What’s up with that?} What are you afraid of? Think you’ll forget it? Think something terrible will happen and you won’t finish? Think it won’t be as good later? Maybe those who must do everything ahead are really negative thinkers. And procrastinators are the positive ones. I don’t want to do it now, because I will have a better idea tomorrow. I want to give it some time to gel. I think I will have more passion for it tomorrow. See, procrastintors are optimists! Tomorrow will be the perfect day!

But I digress. {Shocking!} Back to the list. I think keeping things on a list that I can look at any time, helps me to prioritize. Lists prevent out-of-sight-out-of-mind-syndrome, which is a deadly syndrome. It can kill productivity in a heartbeat! By making a list, things don’t sneak up on you. Not as easily anyway. You know what is coming on the horizon and have time to prepare. And it frees up my mind! I like that! I like being free to dream up creative things to do, solutions to problems, anything creative. And when I have things to remember, it messes up my clean slate for creating. So, I write it down and am free to be Awesome!

Sadly, I haven’t done a good job of teaching my sons list making. We’re working on it, but they kind of seem like old dogs – you know, they don’t want to learn Mom’s new trick.Saturday mornings are my day to impress upon them the importance of the list. The cleaning list, the homework list, the errand list, the project list!

Which brings us full circle. Gotta go – have to wake some boys up and get going on our lists before they turn on Skyrim!

Happy Saturday!

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